Is it wrong for me want to be wherever you are? Is it wrong for me to be near the person I gave my heart mind and soul to? Is it wrong that my comfort zone is not actually a place but a person? I try so hard and I do my best to do what you ask of me but when I ask you one thing you throw it in my face. I don’t want you to be a different person because you are perfect the way you are. I just ask you to put in the same amount of adjustment towards me that I have put towards you. I just wish I knew which side of you I am coming home to. You say you miss me and then I would get home and you would ignore me to watch TV or a movie and then sometimes I would come home and the slightest thing will tick you off. I am tired. When you are on you come home form work why is it fair for you to actually get to relax but when I get home I feel obligated do stuff and you ask me to do things. I am just exhausted that is all, hanging by a very short fuse. It would be nice if the one person that I count on to let me lay my stressed out exhausted head let me lay my head on her instead of chewing off or just ignoring it. I try so hard and sometimes I feel like you do not see it or you just seem to look past it. I don’t know what to do anymore, it really feels like I am underappreciated.
I’m trying my best, but I just don’t know what to do anymore. It is not that I don’t care, it feels like quite the opposite like I’m the only one who does care. You know no one compares to you in my mind, heart, and soul. Why do you put yourself through it when all you have to do is look at me, look at how far we have come, and look it how far you have come. I’m here for you, but the question is do you want me to be here anymore. Love, S.M.P. when I mean forever, I mean forever. I just don’t’ write it on a card or say it just to say it. but I feel like I’m the only one waking up every morning staring at the ceiling, wondering and worrying about what will happen. Always asking myself is this it? What did I do? What can I do?
